Better and calmer today.

I realized I cried a little, like, five times yesterday - and was too freaking worn out to go to Rotary- plus I needed to wash my hair -and while cooking dinner I started doing weird distracted things.


Things that made me cry a little:
- a lovely video of a flashmob doing Beethoven 9/ode to joy. - although, tbh, until the choir comes in it's pretty repetitive. 
- my office-mate's picture book called "some brains" - especially reading it on a day when my brain wouldn't slow down
- being frustrated about concentration
- being asked if i was okay (and a person nearby had a raised voice)
- talking about the above items

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One thing Dan reminded me is that, like, grief is still a factor in all this, and I have a broken tooth (actually two, I just gave up on one of them), allergies, medication switch, and lack of sleep.   Oh yeah. Perhaps losing mom might be affecting me? just maybe? 
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sleep:

I woke two people up with my snoring last night; that's fun. Meg once said I snore 'like a robot with lung cancer.'




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Additional Life Factors that are stressing me out:
- still dealing with estate stuff - there is not a WHOLE lot right now but I got a 2k bill from her retirement saying they overpaid and would like some money back please; need paperwork from the state in order to do things with bank account and  car.  Creditors have 6 months from the time the court receives all their documents to request their money.  If there isn't any money I can do a form that says 'nope.' 


- Teeth - Lower right molar, I cracked it last week, then I think some of the root canal crud came out|? I cant entirely feel or see what's going on. I am TRYING to keep it clean and use the waterpik.  I think it might even have a hole on top and then out the side, based on how things feel. There's also a hole in the upper left where a different filling came out, right next to my empty spot where i have an implant post.  frickin teeth. But that's been vacant forever.  

(I did make an appointment! yay! They can see me 4-24 unless stuff hits the fan I can get in sooner.)



I shall never eat whole almonds again.

OH what made mw want to write about teeth is this: Aspen sent me a bill for 900. My first reaction is, I was pretty sure I put a deposit down for work they never did - their computer systems corporate-wide crashed at the time I had my root canal last year -  so I have doubts about this, but  also, they probably think they have a reason for it.  Gross.  And here i am about to have more dental work.  I wonder if they warranty their fillings because this is probably one of theirs I need fixed - however, I'm going to a private practice that everyone loves.

AND.  I'm going to request that our accountant send us some of the estate just for dental and buying a frickin snowblower.  This is all ridiculous. 

Ok one more for the road: it's pleasant but LOL

Yesterday during the 'people had raised voices'/everyone is stressed times, I did hear my name, but again 'it's none of my business.' 

You KNOW I assumed it wasn't good because = me.

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They want me to be in charge  of an additional (fun) project.