the only way out is through
Apr. 8th, 2025 03:15 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
alicevangelinei mean, maybe. IDK if my subject line is true.
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I didn't yet write about this, but I went to the protest in the state capitol by myself.. Aw, my first protest. It was a generally positive (but cold & rainy) experience. I wandered around for an hour holding my sign and umbrella, admiring other people's signs, and various 'people taking picture' actives. I am only aware of being in 2 stranger's photos. I have all kinds of alarm bells like, if They know you were there, there might be Consequences. But it's pretty unlikely and also maybe worth it. I am not sure if protesting is 'gonna DO anything' but tell ya what, it sure makes me feel better to see all the nationwide protests and people at the statehouse and in small towns. Even if it's a risk.
For a while i was daydreaming about a brand called 'the liberal patriots' because even though us lefties don't wave the flag around as much, we pretty much love what our country stands for. Anyway my sign said: "parks, libraries, education, due process. checks and balances. diversity and civil rights. these are what made us great." and the Made is emphasized because it's past tense. Anywho other countries have these things, but I think these were world class features.
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I feel self conscious for not trying harder to take the kids to ohio, but ty has a sore throat, and it's a 9 hour drive each way. It's not a matter of how much we care, and I hate to be like this, but if I go, I have to bring the kids, and manage them, and they didn't know her, and the grandparents are going to have enough going on. They might enjoy seeing the kids but said kids will NOT be at their best for this. I hope they forgive me. Eff it, I just left my MIL a message to see if it's important to her if they're there and if it is, we'll figure it out. I hope I'm not an asshole. I hope my message wasn't assholey. But I'm trying.
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Work madness continues. it's exhausting. between superintendent search, towns researching whether they should leave, state & federal upheaval, and a new special problem involving our insurance that might happen (our insurer will close if a certain bill passes in the statehouse). Not to mention the usual 'contracts & open enrollment' stuff that would make it a busy time.
I am not loving the uncertainty with it. I ran out of brain for what I was going to try to do, hence I'm here writing.
I like how during Covid we gave ourselves time to be sad & checked out.
And, look, I'm going to give myself some permission to do that too - to be sad, and to check out sometimes.
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I didn't yet write about this, but I went to the protest in the state capitol by myself.. Aw, my first protest. It was a generally positive (but cold & rainy) experience. I wandered around for an hour holding my sign and umbrella, admiring other people's signs, and various 'people taking picture' actives. I am only aware of being in 2 stranger's photos. I have all kinds of alarm bells like, if They know you were there, there might be Consequences. But it's pretty unlikely and also maybe worth it. I am not sure if protesting is 'gonna DO anything' but tell ya what, it sure makes me feel better to see all the nationwide protests and people at the statehouse and in small towns. Even if it's a risk.
For a while i was daydreaming about a brand called 'the liberal patriots' because even though us lefties don't wave the flag around as much, we pretty much love what our country stands for. Anyway my sign said: "parks, libraries, education, due process. checks and balances. diversity and civil rights. these are what made us great." and the Made is emphasized because it's past tense. Anywho other countries have these things, but I think these were world class features.
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I feel self conscious for not trying harder to take the kids to ohio, but ty has a sore throat, and it's a 9 hour drive each way. It's not a matter of how much we care, and I hate to be like this, but if I go, I have to bring the kids, and manage them, and they didn't know her, and the grandparents are going to have enough going on. They might enjoy seeing the kids but said kids will NOT be at their best for this. I hope they forgive me. Eff it, I just left my MIL a message to see if it's important to her if they're there and if it is, we'll figure it out. I hope I'm not an asshole. I hope my message wasn't assholey. But I'm trying.
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Work madness continues. it's exhausting. between superintendent search, towns researching whether they should leave, state & federal upheaval, and a new special problem involving our insurance that might happen (our insurer will close if a certain bill passes in the statehouse). Not to mention the usual 'contracts & open enrollment' stuff that would make it a busy time.
I am not loving the uncertainty with it. I ran out of brain for what I was going to try to do, hence I'm here writing.
I like how during Covid we gave ourselves time to be sad & checked out.
And, look, I'm going to give myself some permission to do that too - to be sad, and to check out sometimes.