stupid mindfulness

[alicevangeline]

I get crabby about it because it's overly trendy, which makes me suspicious, and also makes it, like, The Establishment.  Like a lot of things, it's probably popular and trending because it's a good thing.

Anyway sometimes I try to mellow and take deep breaths and close my eyes and it becomes the opposite of being int he moment.  My imagination runs wild, I'm half-dreaming, and my pulse slows.  It's cool, but then I just wanna keep doing it, like a half-nap I don't want to wake up from.    I might need to be more guided with this.

I've gotten as far as addressing Christmas Cards, but need stamps, and also need enough Oomph to write a message.  I really like getting photos, messages, etc from other people, but I think all I got this year is the energy for a signature.  

I don't want to write a cheerful thing that skips over or glosses over my reality.  WHICH IS FINE REALLY BUT STILL A STRUGGLE.  

I'd like to boycott doing cards for the sake of the post-office and for the paper usage, but I really do like sending and receiving nice wishes.  I did consider getting some stickers to add a little personality to my cards, but nah. I looked at some stickers at a bookstore on a date with Dan on Sunday morning, but was not feeling they were worth it. 

I just posted some pix of 'urban exploration' (but what do you call it when it's not a city, but a small town?) on Instagram.

Comments

[auryn31]

I really like postable because they address and mail your cards for you. And they have cute cards.

How do you do with zoning out while crafting? I sometimes feel like my hands need to be occupied before my brain can focus. Meditation for me can feel like constantly returning a toddler to the same spot on a rug, but I’ve heard practicing that constant return is good stuff.

[alicevangeline]

I like your postable cards :). I'm not good enough at any particular crafts to zone out while doing them lol. I think I need to learn crochet. I can knit, but it's really slow, and I'm told it's more challenging. Usually when sitting around with the family I play stupid phone games like 'scavenger hunt.' i used to like doing paper flowers, but it makes such a mess if I do it in my chair I gotta concentrate on that or be at a table.

I like the suggestion though. I think I need to shift from stupid phone games to craftin!