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Aug. 2nd, 2024 08:32 amgood morning and happy friday!
I had a tooth extracted yesterday. that sucked and continues to be sore and unpleasant. However! we press on. I am going to pat myself on the head for calming myself down during the process. My hands were shaking and then I was like 'right, novocaine can do that, it's not just fear.' and told myself 'relax your shoulders, inhale, exhale, you're going to be fine.he's not going to slip up. even if so, you can handle it. it might be terrible but you will get through it. All will be well'
Also had a mammogram. Hooray for self-care.
Also, cleared out the kitchen table in order to replace it with an Art Desk primarily for meg use. hoping that will be a better use of the space, since the kitchen table just holds clutter.
I've got music on and the door closed so i can Mind My Business while the big shots talk about things today :)
One thing is I think I will be getting a job offer later today, so I'll try to Do Useful Things even during this lame-duck session. (Reassuring myself that it was already weird and lame-duck before I reached for the life-preserver or whatever is happening right now.)
ALSO. You know what is challenging, professionally? trying to not blame other people, or make excuses, but also not to take responsibility or fault for shit that is not my fault. It's a balance, too.
I had a 'what do I even do with myself, there's no value to any of this work' day on Wednesday so I am kind of glad about my self-care-day-off yesterday. (I felt like that because on tuesday we literally looked at all my job duties and discussed what the organization could do without if I moved to a new role, and shocker, like, all of it is 'would be nice to have but not necessary for us to function and really hard to do without Leadership Support' which means a boss who has authority and knowledge that cares about the work.)
so honestly I did get SOME things done Wed, but not a whole lot, and so i used the extra mental energy to finish planning a Vacation. Nothing major, and since we have a lawsuit hanging over us we are being Cautious, so i didnt book the one we kind of wanted but instead did one that will be good enough: labor day weekend, 3 nights up in the white mountains, at a condo at a ski resort. So the kids get swimming pool and wifi, we can play in the Saco river (pix on the listing), and there is a lot of touristy but scenic things to do. Regardless of the weather :)
I still want to do a coastal vacation and get up to the ocean, but this will be nice (and not too expensive unless we go nuts with activities!).
I had a tooth extracted yesterday. that sucked and continues to be sore and unpleasant. However! we press on. I am going to pat myself on the head for calming myself down during the process. My hands were shaking and then I was like 'right, novocaine can do that, it's not just fear.' and told myself 'relax your shoulders, inhale, exhale, you're going to be fine.he's not going to slip up. even if so, you can handle it. it might be terrible but you will get through it. All will be well'
Also had a mammogram. Hooray for self-care.
Also, cleared out the kitchen table in order to replace it with an Art Desk primarily for meg use. hoping that will be a better use of the space, since the kitchen table just holds clutter.
I've got music on and the door closed so i can Mind My Business while the big shots talk about things today :)
One thing is I think I will be getting a job offer later today, so I'll try to Do Useful Things even during this lame-duck session. (Reassuring myself that it was already weird and lame-duck before I reached for the life-preserver or whatever is happening right now.)
ALSO. You know what is challenging, professionally? trying to not blame other people, or make excuses, but also not to take responsibility or fault for shit that is not my fault. It's a balance, too.
I had a 'what do I even do with myself, there's no value to any of this work' day on Wednesday so I am kind of glad about my self-care-day-off yesterday. (I felt like that because on tuesday we literally looked at all my job duties and discussed what the organization could do without if I moved to a new role, and shocker, like, all of it is 'would be nice to have but not necessary for us to function and really hard to do without Leadership Support' which means a boss who has authority and knowledge that cares about the work.)
so honestly I did get SOME things done Wed, but not a whole lot, and so i used the extra mental energy to finish planning a Vacation. Nothing major, and since we have a lawsuit hanging over us we are being Cautious, so i didnt book the one we kind of wanted but instead did one that will be good enough: labor day weekend, 3 nights up in the white mountains, at a condo at a ski resort. So the kids get swimming pool and wifi, we can play in the Saco river (pix on the listing), and there is a lot of touristy but scenic things to do. Regardless of the weather :)
I still want to do a coastal vacation and get up to the ocean, but this will be nice (and not too expensive unless we go nuts with activities!).