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• I'm embracing my inner grumpiness although who can take it seriously when i call it that.
• I think one of the toughest things to do is take yourself the right amount of serious. Like, I'm not actually ridiculous and I deserve to be listened to, but um this is not a binary thing? 
• they think the crown was just extra stuff they forgot to remove before. omg.
• Still haven't heard from the car repo people so I'll need to call them at some point.
• I'm frustrated and discouraged just in general.
• some work stuff is contributing - some DRAMA about field trips, and people trying to 'help' me by warning me against my own boss, and she's not necessarily wrong but as dan puts it, 'okay but is that information actually helpful or actionable in any way' and no. it's anger. which is a whole other thing i['m curious about - what are the Other Things that made this person so angry - but they are not my problem. I should probably find out what that's about, but i hate shit like that.
• meanwhile my boss, who is not perfect but pretty damn smart and well-intentioned, explained where some of the drama is coming from. Fully believable.  But helpful lady suggests boss lied about thingy. Who knows.
• So i'm just going to be annoyed about it, but then proceed to do my job.
• Also have a 'truthiness' situation with a family i'm helping. maybe 2. that's discouraging.
• went to a mtg this morning and got inquired about why some of our people aren't following through on things they committed to last year?
• at the mtg I got discouraged too about the general State Of Things (housing, access to care)
• thinking about legislative efforts got on my nerves thinking about how loud some folks are about politics and some other folks are quiet and then advocacy efforts suffer because people get scared of the ones with guns
• i feel ready to burn my life up again and move but that's not a rational thing, it's just my brain doing the Munch Scream. plus where tf would we go other than 'not the us'