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deep thoughts, thursday edition
Aug. 10th, 2023 10:59 ami think it's thursday anyway!
* When we were talking about my brother & fam moving in with us, I got sad about losing my 'pink room,' until I revised my mental words to 'sharing the room'. And how my family demands my time and I give it - and I sometimes feel all empty - but what if I reframed that to 'sharing' my time and energy? It's not an exact simile, but there's a thing about choice, and control, and ownership that just feels better with this shift.
*I am doing better with the whole fire-hose of work to do. I spent a couple days using organization tools like asana and named tab groups/windows for various projects and template paragraphs that I can reuse. It felt kinda crappy to do the organizing because it's laying groundwork instead of building, but now I'm beginning to build a few things and I'm thanking my past-self.
* I need a metaphor about 'not noticing until it's too late' that isn't gruesome like the frog one.
* I am glad I told the powers-that-be: "no full time in summer. OK to half time."
* my eyebags are impressive right now, and I keep seeing things that I'm like "oh yeah, I dreamed about that"
* IDK if I said but I'm now working 8-12 until school starts, then I'm 8-4. And, not sure if I even wrote about the firehose of projects coming my way, but now you know that's what's happening.... had to work a bit on sunday to be ready for an 8 am mtg on monday, that sort of thing. And the work and type of projects are ENTIRELY in my wheelhouse, it's just the quantity and speed that were alarming, but I'm doing the things!
* Oh, PS, so I can group the work stuff into a couple main categories: planning a fall festival for the first time and making it a BIG DEAL, communications including newsletter and website content dev, partnership building and structures, and Other Projects which include how to get myself paid for via my grant because my contract didn't allow extra time in summer, high school graduation resources (also plays with website), creating a Community Room and, you know, other stuff. So we want the website live on Aug 15, and it's live but crappy now, and we want the newsletter out on Aug 25, and the fest on Oct 14.
HENCE me working now.
*. also, some stuff I feel better about, like my time volunteering with local organizations and helping that student/buddy out - I said to myself, 'wait a minute, if I'm good at my job and sincere, what did they THINK would happen?' Basically I'm saying, well, yeah, even though I yell at myself about boundaries or getting involved with extra stuff, my instincts make sense and are a natural outgrowth of my character and the job i'm in. Like, if you're going to sincerely engage with people, then they're going to trust you and want your help with things. And to show you're a sincere partner, volunteering makes sense - you have to give a little (and that sounds very Scorpio/strategic but isn't evil!)
* Summer TV & Books & Games update:
Watching:
Barbie movie (YES: Pretty, funny, smart, self-aware that barbie can be a problem), the Afterparty seasons 2 & 1 (in that order), Strange New Worlds, Ted Lasso s3, Foundation, Elemental, Teenage Kraken
Games:
Tears of the Kingdom, Animal Crossing - i just found a companion app that is making me too happy; Pikmin 4 (nearly done with it and back to TOTK)
Audiobooks:
Dennis Taylor Outland (some stuff with a grain of salt, like, these college students know an AWFUL LOT about their majors, like I maybe don't buy that - but good audiobook), finished Where'd You Go Bernadette with mom so still thinking about that, N or M & The Secret Adversary. Earlier this summer I read "Children of Memory" by adrian tchaikovsky and it was hella weird and part of a hella weird series.
Kindle etc:
TBR: the cloud roads, the effigy engine, a spy in the house, inkling, Carry On by celia lake
Currently reading "the King's Watch" with Conrad Clarke and it's fine. Just finished Margery Allinghams stuff, PJ Fitzsimmons, Delemhach's 'princess of potential.' I have a celia lake book on my
* When we were talking about my brother & fam moving in with us, I got sad about losing my 'pink room,' until I revised my mental words to 'sharing the room'. And how my family demands my time and I give it - and I sometimes feel all empty - but what if I reframed that to 'sharing' my time and energy? It's not an exact simile, but there's a thing about choice, and control, and ownership that just feels better with this shift.
*I am doing better with the whole fire-hose of work to do. I spent a couple days using organization tools like asana and named tab groups/windows for various projects and template paragraphs that I can reuse. It felt kinda crappy to do the organizing because it's laying groundwork instead of building, but now I'm beginning to build a few things and I'm thanking my past-self.
* I need a metaphor about 'not noticing until it's too late' that isn't gruesome like the frog one.
* I am glad I told the powers-that-be: "no full time in summer. OK to half time."
* my eyebags are impressive right now, and I keep seeing things that I'm like "oh yeah, I dreamed about that"
* IDK if I said but I'm now working 8-12 until school starts, then I'm 8-4. And, not sure if I even wrote about the firehose of projects coming my way, but now you know that's what's happening.... had to work a bit on sunday to be ready for an 8 am mtg on monday, that sort of thing. And the work and type of projects are ENTIRELY in my wheelhouse, it's just the quantity and speed that were alarming, but I'm doing the things!
* Oh, PS, so I can group the work stuff into a couple main categories: planning a fall festival for the first time and making it a BIG DEAL, communications including newsletter and website content dev, partnership building and structures, and Other Projects which include how to get myself paid for via my grant because my contract didn't allow extra time in summer, high school graduation resources (also plays with website), creating a Community Room and, you know, other stuff. So we want the website live on Aug 15, and it's live but crappy now, and we want the newsletter out on Aug 25, and the fest on Oct 14.
HENCE me working now.
*. also, some stuff I feel better about, like my time volunteering with local organizations and helping that student/buddy out - I said to myself, 'wait a minute, if I'm good at my job and sincere, what did they THINK would happen?' Basically I'm saying, well, yeah, even though I yell at myself about boundaries or getting involved with extra stuff, my instincts make sense and are a natural outgrowth of my character and the job i'm in. Like, if you're going to sincerely engage with people, then they're going to trust you and want your help with things. And to show you're a sincere partner, volunteering makes sense - you have to give a little (and that sounds very Scorpio/strategic but isn't evil!)
* Summer TV & Books & Games update:
Watching:
Barbie movie (YES: Pretty, funny, smart, self-aware that barbie can be a problem), the Afterparty seasons 2 & 1 (in that order), Strange New Worlds, Ted Lasso s3, Foundation, Elemental, Teenage Kraken
Games:
Tears of the Kingdom, Animal Crossing - i just found a companion app that is making me too happy; Pikmin 4 (nearly done with it and back to TOTK)
Audiobooks:
Dennis Taylor Outland (some stuff with a grain of salt, like, these college students know an AWFUL LOT about their majors, like I maybe don't buy that - but good audiobook), finished Where'd You Go Bernadette with mom so still thinking about that, N or M & The Secret Adversary. Earlier this summer I read "Children of Memory" by adrian tchaikovsky and it was hella weird and part of a hella weird series.
Kindle etc:
TBR: the cloud roads, the effigy engine, a spy in the house, inkling, Carry On by celia lake
Currently reading "the King's Watch" with Conrad Clarke and it's fine. Just finished Margery Allinghams stuff, PJ Fitzsimmons, Delemhach's 'princess of potential.' I have a celia lake book on my