Sep. 23rd, 2019

alicevangeline: Transichor, name derived from "change" and "blood", is an eel with venom that can change your blood (Default)
i think that's a mavis staples lyric.

I feel pretty alone and stressed.

Besides tearing my life apart to move to a new state, my rabbit is still pretty sick (i'll spare you the details) and possibly dying. I'm afraid to take him to the vet because i didn't finish the antibiotics because he wouldn't take them and dan and i left town and i had to delegate rabbit care and i thought a clean fresh bed indoors would help him and it sort of did but he's still sick.

So that's hard.

No friends except My Friends' Kids came to Meg's birthday yesterday. We invited 2 classmates last week but one didn't see it, one, i didn't have her contact info so the teacher had to forward and idk what happened, and then i invited 3 more pairs of siblings and 2 couldn't make it and 1 didn't reply/see it. So, like, everyone had a reason, and i should have invited the whole class, but Meg just wanted Temperance to come so that's who I invited. I'm a dumbass but I'm also really mad at, like, The World, because it's nobody's fault, but is it too much to ask world for a little girl who is MOVING and who had NOBODY come last year have a couple friends attend? I could have done more, except I couldn't, becaue i didn't even know she wanted a party till a couple weeks before and also I'm losing my mind.


That's really effing sad, that is. And she handled it ok, but there were a lot of ups & downs, and I was stressed out and trying to be a strong firm mama too.


I mean, she's freakin moving away, you'd think somebody would make an effort. And i'm sad because i should have tried harder.



Also it's raining. Also I told Dan to NOT take the paintings down from the house because I'm not ready for that. Everything else almost is packed up. ALL THE BOOKS.
alicevangeline: Transichor, name derived from "change" and "blood", is an eel with venom that can change your blood (Default)
- it makes sense to be sad and weepy. (I know it's weird to be in the aforementioned category, but it is.)
- Ty has been awesome and loving.
- Dan as well. we are a good team.
- Even though my back hurts I had more trampoline endurance than the 18 year old party host!
- The party host was wonderful and made friends with Meg.

- we have friends and family who care about us.
- we're making plans to do something kickass.

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