unconscious decisions
Aug. 15th, 2019 09:06 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
alicevangelineSo, part of my Plan for deciding about jobs was - besides gathering infomration - just kind of, mindfully watching myself, and seeing what i think, and trying to figure out What I Want.
I kind of realized today after a stressful meeting that - although i will always have stressful meetings in my life - it doesn't have to be This Same Stuff all the time. And the thing about the meeting was that we are doing HUGE things where i work on a teeny tiny little staff. We are pretty darn good but, as i frequently state, i feel like idk what i'm doing a lot of the time. While I learn, it's exahausting to learn all the time.
Today i feel just BLEH. I don't like either choice today!
I kind of realized today after a stressful meeting that - although i will always have stressful meetings in my life - it doesn't have to be This Same Stuff all the time. And the thing about the meeting was that we are doing HUGE things where i work on a teeny tiny little staff. We are pretty darn good but, as i frequently state, i feel like idk what i'm doing a lot of the time. While I learn, it's exahausting to learn all the time.
Today i feel just BLEH. I don't like either choice today!