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Sep. 25th, 2024 07:39 am I deleted a post because it was dumb. Journals shouldn't be full of judgement, but one CAN think better of something later and make an appropriate correction! (Basically reinventing equine therapy except all mental.)
I will, however, use this space to say:
- I am just kind of exhausted all the time. Part of it's sleep, and part of it is responsibility all the time, and and nothing being easy. I'm learning a new job and still managing the homeless students which is emotionally draining too.
Every single fucking day meg doesn't want to go to school and she is trying to spin her cold/allergy symptoms and back pain into staying home. she wishes she were sick so that she could stay home. there isn't anything particularly wrong with school, she just doesn't want to leave the house, in her own words.
Ty is still kinda hazily drifting toward graduation, and being pretty passive about his plans.
I am doing the thing where I am trying to SUPPORT without DOING IT FOR HIM. For example, setting up time to do the common app for college and do it together. or schedule a college tour but I said which colleges would you want to see and he gestured to a pile of brochures. Figuring out what we can afford and whether there is enough Ty Support seems like a parent responsibility; as is scheduling tours. (We did schedule one for a day off but it's too freaking far, and I think it's ok to say that'll be too far in general).
I'm also trying to plan ahead for next week when dan's out of town so that I don't lose my mind.
Also didi mention the washer broke? I have laundry in the car. I was going to try to use the local laundromat but they didn't update their hours on google and they were closed when I went by last night. The part is coming tomorrow.
Ty's senior pictures are tonight so I didn't want to try to Laundry tonight.
I will, however, use this space to say:
- I am just kind of exhausted all the time. Part of it's sleep, and part of it is responsibility all the time, and and nothing being easy. I'm learning a new job and still managing the homeless students which is emotionally draining too.
Every single fucking day meg doesn't want to go to school and she is trying to spin her cold/allergy symptoms and back pain into staying home. she wishes she were sick so that she could stay home. there isn't anything particularly wrong with school, she just doesn't want to leave the house, in her own words.
Ty is still kinda hazily drifting toward graduation, and being pretty passive about his plans.
I am doing the thing where I am trying to SUPPORT without DOING IT FOR HIM. For example, setting up time to do the common app for college and do it together. or schedule a college tour but I said which colleges would you want to see and he gestured to a pile of brochures. Figuring out what we can afford and whether there is enough Ty Support seems like a parent responsibility; as is scheduling tours. (We did schedule one for a day off but it's too freaking far, and I think it's ok to say that'll be too far in general).
I'm also trying to plan ahead for next week when dan's out of town so that I don't lose my mind.
Also didi mention the washer broke? I have laundry in the car. I was going to try to use the local laundromat but they didn't update their hours on google and they were closed when I went by last night. The part is coming tomorrow.
Ty's senior pictures are tonight so I didn't want to try to Laundry tonight.
I will give Ty some credit - he remembered about the pictures! and put on a clean shirt today without prompting!\
AND Meg was cheerful after school and practiced bike riding with dad!
so it's not all doom and gloom. It's the above parenting stuff, and the 'what can you guys eat today' things, and the dentist and therapist vsiits, and i am figuring out a thing with mom's estate (a new form to file), and work.
Work is fine, but I get pissy about how house of cards things are. Nothing is systematic, there is a lot of duplication of efforts and lots of paper files. And I get mad about how low taxes equals low money for our systems and then the rich town wanting to split off and do their own thing. Just a kind of 'everything is dumb' anger.