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Jan. 2nd, 2024 12:30 pmor whatever.
today: I'm masked and at work, but a little raspy and drippy and brain foggy. I 'should' be better by now; I'm just not 100% and more tired than i realized.
I wrote my leadership coach a freakout email, so that's embarrassing but whatever. It was like, i want to try to focus on something and have hope about something and manifest something and create an intention but at the time of writing I was tired, scared, frustrated, and angry, and sad too.
Today, I do feel like I'm doing the best I can, and I'm not going to get randomly fired or sued, and that when I have 'emotional' moments that is, like, both part of the package, part of being human, and something I'm working to control.
And so I sent a 'sorry i freaked out at ya' email, and I talked a little about hope not burning itself out, like an ember of coal, and maybe that's what I need to remember.
I need to go to the bank to deposit a grant check, and while I'm out I think I might get some soup or something 'to go.'
I've seen a meme that says 'in my defense, i was left unsupervised' and I'm trying to chuckle at that and also do what I can to make sure that if I am 'left unsupervised' I won't be going down wrong paths. I'm a 42 year old lady who's worked for 20 years and has a pretty random master's degree, I can make my own rules and give myself permission. I just want to make sure there's nobody who decides after the fact that I was just wrong about it all.
today: I'm masked and at work, but a little raspy and drippy and brain foggy. I 'should' be better by now; I'm just not 100% and more tired than i realized.
I wrote my leadership coach a freakout email, so that's embarrassing but whatever. It was like, i want to try to focus on something and have hope about something and manifest something and create an intention but at the time of writing I was tired, scared, frustrated, and angry, and sad too.
Today, I do feel like I'm doing the best I can, and I'm not going to get randomly fired or sued, and that when I have 'emotional' moments that is, like, both part of the package, part of being human, and something I'm working to control.
And so I sent a 'sorry i freaked out at ya' email, and I talked a little about hope not burning itself out, like an ember of coal, and maybe that's what I need to remember.
I need to go to the bank to deposit a grant check, and while I'm out I think I might get some soup or something 'to go.'
I've seen a meme that says 'in my defense, i was left unsupervised' and I'm trying to chuckle at that and also do what I can to make sure that if I am 'left unsupervised' I won't be going down wrong paths. I'm a 42 year old lady who's worked for 20 years and has a pretty random master's degree, I can make my own rules and give myself permission. I just want to make sure there's nobody who decides after the fact that I was just wrong about it all.