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oh man you guys

I have decided that I do, in fact, know wtf I'm doing, and that it's okay if I do ~that~ instead of flashy & important-to-someone-else things.  However, i AM making steady progress on the flashy things.

I do occasionally panic that maybe I don't, maybe I'll crash burn and fail and nobody knows what an imposter I am, and then that's my cue to heckin relax about it.  I've fooled them all, I guess, what would keep me from continuing to do so? 

It's funny that we anxious people worry about failure being due to not being 'good enough.' being in a school environment kind of frames failure differently.  Teachers (good ones) kinda go "so why is this kid failing? are they not trying at all? why not, what's that about? Or are they not GETTING it? How can I explain it differently? Are they doing too many things?"  and my personal favorite inspired by my older kid, "Did they do most of the homework and then never give it to me for a grade?" etc.  

We don't do that, at work, with ourselves. My inner boss is an old-school gym-teacher tyrant that just wants to PUSH me to succeed.  But most of me is just freakin scared of him.  

Anyway, yeah. I made progress on some food/hunger initiatives, which are really important, and made less progress on websites and newsletters, which are also important but a little less deadliney (like, okay, there ARE deadlines, but I'd rather feed hungry kids and boost test scores, you know what i mean? it kinda doesn't matter if the resource guides get online this week or next.).  I also was asked to onboard a new employee with some community-relations stuff, which meant road-trip, which meant time away from my desk BUT it was valuable time anyway in both regards - building my relationship with her and figuring out how we're going to work together, and strengthening relationships with local resources (by doing these meetings).

The other thing is, one of the big parts of new website is 'partners,' and in order to do that we gotta establish what a partnership with us means. Like, we can kinda guess that, but let's not leave that to chance and piss people off.  So in order to list partners on the website, I do want to set up parameters. 

My websitey stuff is like: 1. how do I increase findability of my content (and not SEO is not the answer - it's site navigability and menu UI, i THINK), 2. Valuable content structured in a usable way bearing in mind more will be added over time, (such as the partners) and then 3.  Share the content in a news reelase in a way that the tech allows me to do it AND that people can use the info.


So instead of pounding the keys to get a 'newsletter' out, that's the sort of stuff I was doing.