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yeesh everything's weird.
Aug. 24th, 2021 11:18 amHurricane update - it's fine. It rained weakly for a few hours. I was concerned because we had roads wash out a few weeks ago, including the one Ty's bus takes to get to school, but no problems. My street has a bit of a road-corrosion problem, but all fine.
The sunset was weird, though - ty was concerned about yellow sky.
this is going to be a scambled-eggs kind of post.
Dunkin did NOT give me an iced latte, but I don't know what it is. It might be vanilla iced coffee with milk, or vanilla americano, but it's not the milky sweetness i was expecting. I've been trying to decrease my caf intake by doing coffee & green tea rather than latte, but this is a weird beverage that may be making me anxious.
It's been a month or so of Increased Medication, and there are a couple things I've noticed: I'm less perky and have more just chill moments, and calmer is nice. But on the other hand, I'm angry or irritated a lot. i'm wondering about this. It could be correlation or causation. I get annoyed/angry at people not taking care of their stuff (and/or my stuff), I get annoyed & angry at work people, or people at home not helping me (like, i'm on the phone with my therapist, we're leaving after i'm done, and nobody got the kids ready during that hour), and things that are reasonable to be irritated about. I think I don't really like it, though. I've been kind of thinking about that - am I standing up for myself now? Do I value myself more so I'm noticing this unfairness? Or is it a chemical thing?
I said yesterday that it was a weird day. My colleague said it was the barometric pressure.
And the other weird thing is that the boss is out of town this week. It's quiet, therefore. And feels like people are not in my way :) And we're basically ready for the typewriters exhibit two days early.
And to do the typewriters exhibit -someone has to pick machines, publicize the event, do graphic design, research the machines, clean them, set them out on a table so it looks like an exhibit. There are 3 of us on staff this week, so.... I've been scrubbing an 1878 typewriter with a toothbrush today and doing lots of googling.
Also my arms are sore from the elevator pulley. (I kid you not.)
So, like, it's cool to work in an old building, but there's just so much dysfunction. Like that the boss has said for a year that we were getting a new printer. ....that's...not a big deal. we have the money. And now it's crashing.
I don't know if i said this, but My therapist crossed one of her boundaries to tell me to MOVE ON from here because there is a lot she doesn't like the sound of. It's really weird how being able to 'take' disrespect and persevere is something that we're supposed to want to do. And an 'it's not that bad' should be good enough for me to work there, right? Going back to the earlier theme, a little bit of anger is a good thing.
The sunset was weird, though - ty was concerned about yellow sky.
this is going to be a scambled-eggs kind of post.
Dunkin did NOT give me an iced latte, but I don't know what it is. It might be vanilla iced coffee with milk, or vanilla americano, but it's not the milky sweetness i was expecting. I've been trying to decrease my caf intake by doing coffee & green tea rather than latte, but this is a weird beverage that may be making me anxious.
It's been a month or so of Increased Medication, and there are a couple things I've noticed: I'm less perky and have more just chill moments, and calmer is nice. But on the other hand, I'm angry or irritated a lot. i'm wondering about this. It could be correlation or causation. I get annoyed/angry at people not taking care of their stuff (and/or my stuff), I get annoyed & angry at work people, or people at home not helping me (like, i'm on the phone with my therapist, we're leaving after i'm done, and nobody got the kids ready during that hour), and things that are reasonable to be irritated about. I think I don't really like it, though. I've been kind of thinking about that - am I standing up for myself now? Do I value myself more so I'm noticing this unfairness? Or is it a chemical thing?
I said yesterday that it was a weird day. My colleague said it was the barometric pressure.
And the other weird thing is that the boss is out of town this week. It's quiet, therefore. And feels like people are not in my way :) And we're basically ready for the typewriters exhibit two days early.
And to do the typewriters exhibit -someone has to pick machines, publicize the event, do graphic design, research the machines, clean them, set them out on a table so it looks like an exhibit. There are 3 of us on staff this week, so.... I've been scrubbing an 1878 typewriter with a toothbrush today and doing lots of googling.
Also my arms are sore from the elevator pulley. (I kid you not.)
So, like, it's cool to work in an old building, but there's just so much dysfunction. Like that the boss has said for a year that we were getting a new printer. ....that's...not a big deal. we have the money. And now it's crashing.
I don't know if i said this, but My therapist crossed one of her boundaries to tell me to MOVE ON from here because there is a lot she doesn't like the sound of. It's really weird how being able to 'take' disrespect and persevere is something that we're supposed to want to do. And an 'it's not that bad' should be good enough for me to work there, right? Going back to the earlier theme, a little bit of anger is a good thing.