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Aug. 1st, 2017 01:38 pmThe older I get the less patience I have for details. It's a shame becuase i used to think of myself as detail oriented and now I find that with many things i simply don't care. Like my dad's tombstone - font choice? don't care. Above or below? Don't care. Work: Where does this sign go? Don't care.
I guess on the up side that makes me low maintenance. I should remember to say "whatever you think is best" which means "i don't care, you figure it out". Generally i say "It doesn't matter to me but if you need me to decide I will."
I started to watch Alice Through the Looking Glass but Ty got freaked out so I had to turn it off.
Anywho I think there's lots of leadershippy quotes about doing things that care you, and I'm in a state this week where it's a little TOO quiet and I'm freaking out a little, like what am i supposed to be doing? And having meetings with people who are way smarter (and better informed) than I am and feeling pretty dumb. I guess it's best to surround yourself with people smarter than oneself. So, feeling a bit in over my head but it's mostly a feeling.The fact of it is that I am learning, there's definitely stuff I don't know, but there's stuff i DO know as well.
When I was on too many medicines for ear and sinus infections I couldn't find my birth control medicine and I was like Eff it, I'm taking 5 bazillion pills anyway and we're not even doin it, so I just got lazy about taking it. A few weeks later and crying at commercials reminds me that's not the only reason I take bc. So now I'm back on bc and of course it's been a few weeks so I'm probably readjusting anyway. ugh. Might explain my general paranoia.
I guess on the up side that makes me low maintenance. I should remember to say "whatever you think is best" which means "i don't care, you figure it out". Generally i say "It doesn't matter to me but if you need me to decide I will."
I started to watch Alice Through the Looking Glass but Ty got freaked out so I had to turn it off.
Anywho I think there's lots of leadershippy quotes about doing things that care you, and I'm in a state this week where it's a little TOO quiet and I'm freaking out a little, like what am i supposed to be doing? And having meetings with people who are way smarter (and better informed) than I am and feeling pretty dumb. I guess it's best to surround yourself with people smarter than oneself. So, feeling a bit in over my head but it's mostly a feeling.The fact of it is that I am learning, there's definitely stuff I don't know, but there's stuff i DO know as well.
When I was on too many medicines for ear and sinus infections I couldn't find my birth control medicine and I was like Eff it, I'm taking 5 bazillion pills anyway and we're not even doin it, so I just got lazy about taking it. A few weeks later and crying at commercials reminds me that's not the only reason I take bc. So now I'm back on bc and of course it's been a few weeks so I'm probably readjusting anyway. ugh. Might explain my general paranoia.